Friday, March 11

Getting Into Skinning Again

Alright, I've gotten back into skinning my sims. I've recently made a bathing suit for young adult sims. You have to be a member of EA's Sims 2 website in order to download. In order to be a member, you have to register your game via the Sims 2 game. For those who have pirated versions of the game I'm willing to share the love anyways and have a packaged version on my comp, just let me know and I can email it. It's about 0.42mb as per what Sims 2 website says. Oh, but you must have the new EP in order to use this, as it being for young adults and all. As always, link below...

Polka Dot Ring Halter

Monday, March 7

Gmail Invites

I have 45 of 'em, so who wants one??

Monday, February 28

Growing Up, Feeling Out Of Place

Argh. I truly do feel like I'm in junior high school again, moving to a new state, being forced to leave my friend in New Jersey behind, making new ones in Pennsylvania. I'm 21 now, actually just turned 21 this past Friday. I look at various relationships in my life and realize I don't have much left. I keep a small circle of friends. Those that I do keep close are truly gifted people. These are people who have changed my life dramatically in one way or another. I'm very grateful for that. In a sense though, I feel so alone. My best friend Kate, who is like a sister to me, any closer we would just have to become blood relatives, is graduating college this year. I'm ecstatic for her. She's worked extremely hard to get where she is. I wish nothing for the best for the girl. We used to live down the street from each other during high school. We became really close in band, marching band, etc... We clicked really well and she's an alpha-chick in a lot of ways and so am I. I gues that had something to do with it. We're both very strongly opinionated on many subjects and quite stubborn as well. We don't nessecarily agree on everything but we understand where the other one is coming from. She's been my strength all these years too. I wish I had the perserverance she has, and the motivation is just something I've never seen in anyone else before. She is truly amazing.

Well getting back to the story. She graduates college. She'll be recieving her Undergraduate Degree in Anthropology. Her college is 5 hours away from where she originally lives and where I still live. I've grown pretty used to her not being around much. When we do get the pleasure to see each other, when she's on break and whatnot, it's like she never left. She's decided to continue with her education and go to Graduate School. Turns out, she had gotten into two very prominent colleges for grad school, in England. My dear best friend Kate is going to England continue her education. I'm so delighted and excited for her. It will truly be an experience unlike any other for her to go through. I'm also extremely proud of her. I'll sit there and back her up no matter what she wants to do in life.

England is just so far away and even though I feel this tremendious happiness for her, at the same time my heart is screaming "please don't go!" I knew it was going to happen sooner or later. She thinks she's going to stay there after school too. It's awesome. We have always been able to understand personal space and boundaries and that alone has really brought us closer. I just don't know how to cope with this on a personal deep level. I try to ignore the part of myself that wants her to stay. It's just not working.

I've had to go through this before with my other very close friend, Jared. He had gone to Florida for art school. He also lives right down the road. It was hard, I cried a lot in the beginning. I got used to it though. Atleast Florida was atleast in the same time zone. Jared's back now, graduated and doing well.

I think i'm usually very good at handling long-distance relationships of any kind. My fiance and I had done it for a long time. He living in Indianapolis, while I lived here in 'lil 'ol Pennsylvania. That was also quite hard to deal with. I did get through it though. Now we live together.

That's pretty much all I have. Kate, Jared and Daniel. I do have two cousins that I used to be extremely close with. When I became ill, I naturally pushed them away (comes with the disease), plus they didn't understand what I was going through, thus making it easier to push them away. The bonds that I had with both of them feel broken. The three of us have been trying for awhile to become closer again. That counts for something. Even so, my cousin Nicole lives in North Jersey and Denise "technically" lives in South Jersey. She's going to college up here, but she graduates this year as well.

And something that makes this even more hard is my urge to want to go out all the time now. This is something completely new to me. I've always considered myself an introvert. Everyone else thought that as well. It seems though since I've become "legal", I have this need to just go out and have a good time. It's frustrating. Daniel is just 18, Kate is 5 hours away and Jared doesn't drink (mainly because he can't even get a buzz off the stuff, his tolerance is really high). Whenever Denise and I go to make plans something else always comes up. Nicole works a lot. Everyone is just off leading their own individual lives and I feel lost amoungst it all.

I think people are used to me not wanting to do anything or go out due to my past record with my illnesses. It's extremely hard to break that mold now of assumed judgement. At the same time though, I only get along with certain people. It's just all too confusing.

I truly do feel out of place.

A wonderful picture done by a very good friend of mine, Jared Lewis. He's an amazing artist. I'm currently working on his website design. Here's a sneak peak at his work. You can see the rest of it at Posted by Hello

Wednesday, February 23

Another Quiz

Taken from Site AyntRyte
I slightly changed it though...

I’ve Kissed A Member Of The Opposite Sex
I’ve Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
I’ve Never Crashed A Friend’s Car
I’ve Never Been To Japan - but plan on going next year
I’ve Been In A Taxi
I’ve Been In Love
I’ve Never Had Sex In a Public Place
I’ve Been Dumped
I’ve Never Done Cocaine
I’ve Never Shoplifted
I’ve Been Fired
I’ve Never Been In A Fist Fight
I’ve Never Had Group Intercourse
I’ve Never Snuck Out Of My Parent’s House
I’ve Been Tied Up
I’ve Regretted Having Sex With Someone
I’ve Never Been Arrested
I’ve Made Out With A Stranger
I’ve Never Stolen Something From My Job
I’ve Never Celebrated New Years In Time Square
I’ve Never Gone On A Blind Date
I’ve Never Lied To A Friend
I’ve Never Had A Crush On A Teacher or Professor
I’ve Never Celebrated Mardi Gras In New Orleans
I’ve Been To Europe
I’ve Skipped School
I’ve Slept With A Co-Worker - mainly cause we're engaged
I’ve Cut Myself On Purpose
I’ve Never Had Sex At The Office
I’ve Never Been Married
I’ve Never Been Divorced
I’ve Never Had Sex With More Than One Person Within The Same Week
I’ve Never Posed Nude
I’ve Never Gotten Someone Drunk Just To Have Sex With Them
I’ve Never Killed Anyone
I’ve Received Scars From My Sex Partner
I’ve Never Thrown Up In A Bar
I’ve Never Taken a Hallucinogenic Drug
I’ve Never Purposely Set A Part Of Myself On Fire
I’ve Eaten Sushi
I’ve Never Been Snowboarding
I’ve Had Sex At A Friend’s House While They Were Throwing A Party
I’ve Never Had Sex In A Dressing Room
I’ve Flashed Someone
I’ve Met Someone From The Internet

Monday, February 21

Top 25: Medical Stories

I found this to be quite interesting. The title link goes to the online version of what I watched on CNN early yesturday morning.

One of the Top 25 Medical Stories is Anthrax, which is to be expected, but did you know that they're making home safety kits in case of an Anthrax epidemic? This is the new thing. Apparently they're making Anthrax Vaccine Patches and soon everyone will be able to keep them in their households. If there is an outbreak of Anthrax, people are advised to just take these patches and put it on their bodies. Instant Vaccine! I found it to be quite interesting. I'm not sure if it's too much paranoia or if there will actually be a day we'll need it. I mean, after all the tradegy of the WTC was unthinkable until it happened.

Introducing A.I. Designs

I opened up a t-shirt shop. Another way to make money for college. If you like anything, please don't hesistate to buy. Most of the t-shirt designs are custom made. The website doesn't look so hot yet. That's tomorrow's project, making it much more attractive and organized. It still works though. Link is below.

A.I. Designs

Sunday, February 20

Taking A Moment

I would like to take a moment to remember a friend of my fiance's who has recently past away due to respiratory cancer and leukemia. If you are the religious type, please put Matt and his family in your prayers tonight. He was 21 when he had passed away and also had a wife. He was a very healthy person up until 6 months ago when he went for his normal physical. That's when they had found both cancers. He was a runner, a state champion to be exact. He never smoked and neither did those he hung around. He was truly healthy. As they saying goes, they always take the good ones first in life. Well, Matt, my prayers are with you tonight.

Another reminder that those close to you can be gone in a blink of an eye. Never take others for granted. Appreciate every second of your life and the time you have with those that you love.

Please Notice The New Donation Button

Alright, here's the deal.

I placed a new donation button on my blog. It's a Paypal donation button, they had many to choose from, this one looked the nicest.

I'm going back to college this coming Fall. I'm double-majoring in Fine Arts with a focus in Photography as well as Film Studies. I'm minoring in English. Paperwork is done, it's inevitable, I'm going. I need to go. That's final.

I don't have much money at all. Financial Aid will cover a nice amount, but any help is appreciated. My parents spent whatever I had as a college fund on a treadmill for themselves, as ridiculous as that sounds, it's true. I've suffered a severe mental illness for the past 10 years of my life as well. I've fought it and I've won. So now it's time to get my life back on track. Also, at the moment my profession is a writer. Writer's well new writers breaking into the field, really don't make much money. I'm also planning on getting my bartender's liscence sometime in the next month or so. Then a "real" job to help support all of this.

So this is very legitimate. I know there are a lot of skeptics out there.

Anything would be greatly appreciated :)

Friday, February 11

Kamikazee Girls

I was watching a movie earlier, I believe it's titled "Husbands and Wives". Woody Allen, Julliette Lewis... There's this part where Woody Allen is talking about these so-called Kamikazee Girls. They're woman who are spontaneous, and free-spirited. Basically though they always end up spiraling into this mess. So they're very unstable right? Then he was talking about how he was attracted to this certain type of woman. Alright so. I guess I would be classified as a Kamikazee Girl, due to my bi-polar depression and I do make a lot more trouble for myself and end up in a huge mess. Which, someone else usually has to clean up for me.

So to get this straight, from Woody Allen's character in that movie, there are guys that are attracted to such things. Hrmmm...

Then should I feel so bad for putting Daniel through the shit that I have?? Even though, none of it was on purpose, it's all due to the disease.

Something I'm going to have to ponder about.

Poetry Sneak-Peak

I don't usually do this, mainly because I don't trust internet copyright laws. Since this manuscript is copyrighted by other means than the internet I guess it's alright. This is one of the poems in my manuscript that is currently being shopped to agents. Comments truly appreciated.

Caustic spasms throughout the night
Radiate like stolen lights
Taken from the earthly misery
Shaking the sky above
Your breath becomes clear in this heat
Uncommon to the lonely nights
Laying with you here is a faint memory
That time will slowly forget
Healing uses a lot of pain
To shake the emotions clear out of thought
You're now on another page
That's trailing into space
To clean this horrible mess
I must invoke my deepest friends
To carry me through this darkness
That lurks on to be forever
As I struggle to close the book once again

© Toni Lynn Iachetta

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